Taking my place

Proud in the stance of who I am, demanding respect with mystery, yet transparency that is me....
I am made from man's bones but formed in His hands
Sculpted to precision for His master plan
Placed on this earth destined for greatness
My smile speaks of His love in which I found my happiness

My reflection, unique. Freed from blemishes of my own critique

I carry within, a heart of gold, Christ's given treasure chest full of love, worship and lessons learnt
My lips the carriers of the Message in warm whispers to your being
My mind expands, my arms extend the more I behold....
Visions and true reflections unseen,
My ears long to hear of your stories untold

I stand my ground and believe in my dreams, God's vision in me to make a change in the world
Submissive yet not puppeteer-ed by the fingers of the world
Nor or ensnared by emotion strings it pulls at its whim

I stand firm within, freed mind, free will, strong in my desire to be His helping hand

My aim, simply to make His presence felt to whoever I encounter and and leave a legacy of His love and awesome wonder

Unleashed from inerting thought

Sometimes I'm curious..when I die...what will it be like, what will I step into?

Death is just something we all have in common, the same fate we all share regardless of how we get there.
Something we can't escape...

I guess this is why I made a conscious decision to rather look at things more positively and LIVE my life...
If I want to live in an ideal world I need to create it...treat others the way I would like to be treated and consciously decide to walk with a smile everyday. This is why I can easily think of others as my own..like one big family where everybody belongs and deserves to be loved...this is how I would like to be treated, no pretense...


Life is our common denominator...that which makes us singular...our uniqueness lies in our names and the aspirations born in your parents minds with our creation, yet when we hear it calling out to us, it brings us all a sense of comfort....belonging...identity...

Time, well... he is my dear my friend, walking slowly with me always as I float through my reality to my final breath...I know he will be there...and continue to exist without me...carrying those I left behind towards their final hours to meet me in eternity...another possibility?Evolution of my being?

Every sound, every word, every beat or melody...tends towards silence...nothingness...All the sensations of life you experience, leads towards something you cannot deny...embrace your life as you know its destination...LIVE your life...leave your Legacy as a precious companion to your friend, Time.

In the eleventh hour...do you really want to wonder if you have made something particular of your life...if you have been real and true to yourself and not conforming to society which drains the essence of your color...

I want embrace my world and the particles of life surrounding me, sharing in my journey towards the unknown...not just a visitor to this world.

In the end, I don't need the answers tho, I celebrate the mystery and simplicity. We are all entwined our uniqueness makes us special, and this renders us common. We are all unique... just...like...everyone else.

If we accepted this notion, we would all suffer a lot less from self-importance, righteous indignation, and the insane idea that we have it all figured out.

Life, love and lessons

I sat back and reflected on 27 years of my life and the lessons I gained...just thought about how I have come to this point in my life, I've started to realise that after a while you learn to listen with your eyes and not just your ears...that the most valuable language is conveyed in your actions and reactions.

I learned that company does not mean security, but to be comfortable in your own skin and in your own company is powerful, you have the most intense conversations in your own silence and realisations...

I think I've grasped the subtle difference between holding hands and being fused by your souls and that infatuation is only the 'beginning' of love...that love does not mean learning and only by giving your all unconditionally can you experience the true essence of love given or received as God almighty intended.

Life has taught me that kisses aren't contracts and presents aren't promises, also how to accept defeat with head up and my eyes open and with the grace of an adult and not the grief of a child anymore...

I'm building my bridges and roads on today because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans. Always remembering every breath, every day is a gift, the grace of God. After a while, you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much. So enjoy and take heart in the little things in life, everything comes to an end....good times...and the bad times...

Someone once told me "You have to plant your own garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting for someone else to bring you flowers." These words I take to heart and has been my best friend in times where the lonely wind gathers in the corners....swirling...

Guess what? You will learn as I have, that you really can endure...that you really are strong and you really do have worth...

You're in the music...

Tantalizing sounds reach my ears
I feel you near me and my core numbs in surrender to your presence
The music mesmerizes and you bid me closer,
Your eyes drawing me into submission as you hold me in embrace
Syncronising our hearts rhythm to the beat of moment
Swaying to the ambiance, you welcome me in..
My senses rise as you move me to your whim
Your eyes burning with elation fires up my being

How you make me come alive in these moments...
Allowing you to touch that part of me is terrifying, yet overwhelming
Suffocating has never felt this good...enchanted by your hands
A connection entranced by the charms of euphonious instruments

Moving to the rhythm you tease me, I search for your eyes with every turn
Yearning to be close to you and feel your body ignited by the song
Your smile tells me all as my hands mysteriously always find yours in anticipation of the next journey you'll take me
Music, rhythm of our being, entwined in passion encapsulates me, lost in your gaze

Dance with me...take me away into your eyes...the music plays forever more within

The pain of perception...

The darkness that once haunted me is back
Rushing in like the merciless waves of the fierce ocean
The hurt and pain of perception
Mankind, the cruel nature
Never true to the heart
Each day killing each other bit by bit
Breaking down your brother’s being
The savage beast devouring what good is left inside
Not realizing the damage
Victim, not strong enough,
Too far gone to harness the power they hold to resist

In here...and now...

We seem to dwell our lives away in wondering why things seem to happen to us at the most un-opportune times..."Why?..why me?" These are moments lost in uncertainty we will never regain...
Its not so much the 'why' in moments that matters but 'im here'...'now...' It is here where you find yourself...in the 'now'. If you'd only realise that this is where you need to be...supposed to be...create your reality in now...just 'be'.

If you harness these moments you find that you cannot be the person you want to be nor can you mold yourself into what others would like you to be...you will never please the world by conforming to society or the norm...

Be, in the moment of now...be yourself.

You cant define your happiness by things you see, what you see is not 'your' reality, your reality lies in what others see when you live your life through your own eyes...

There is no secret to life, you are exactly where you need to be, this is what God put on your path to mold you into your full potential, what is left for you to do is live in this moment of now and make the best of everything He has taught you so that you may grow and be fruitful, His goal, so you may be mature, complete and lacking nothing...(James 1:4) How wonderful to know this...

Stop turning away from yourself in search of something better, this is your chance, your heart breaks when you move away from what is right there in front of you, you find yourself in complete awareness of you...be still...learn to listen...God is speaking to you in gentle loving tone...guiding you on your way.

Loving yourself and being real, taking care of your relationship with God first, this is the key to finding your strength and ability to love unconditionally...an inner peace transcends you in these moments when you settle in your bones that you are exactly as you need to be in this moment.

Imagine entering a new reality/mindset where you are free from definitions, descriptions and separation...free from what society deems acceptable...just being you in who God wants you to be...experiencing everything freely as He wanted for you...the precious gift of life and free will.

You and only you is what is keeping yourself from this freedom...with your slightly off centre disposition and quirky ways...you are the answer. The key....choice...

Are you really that afraid of your own possibilities....your capabilities to become or be the greatness our Father has in store for you....just let go...when you really become aware of what is here and in this moment of now...you will find that it has nothing to with what you think or what you want at all.

Simply your responsibility...is to submit.

Realising my worth...

I've come to the conclusion that when marriage finally crosses my mind with someone I care about, it should be someone who is able to take care of me..someone who can take me to the next level. Don't get me wrong...I'm not a fussy person who is high maintenance, but I do know the value of who I am and what I have to offer when giving my all to someone I love... Just because I'm a self sufficient person does not mean I have to settle for less than I deserve...

Thinking about it, I can do badly all by myself...I am a woman who does not need a man to be alright or to validate my existence but I do desire to one day have someone in my life that I can share everything with, someone I can devote my life to making him happy and give him all the joys and love in the world God intended. A Christian man, who's settled and knows who he is, has goals, accomplishments and a job he is comfortable in, a goal-oriented and focused man. I do realise that this kind of man can't just be approached any kind of way...

Am I worthy...

(one of my many scribbles...something that always lingers in my mind)

The rose within longs to bloom in the song of love,
Sung by lips that flow with honey that fills the soul with smiles,
The mind with wonder...the eyes in awe with the sight of true love's splendour
Surrounded by everything that is you

The thought of you keeps a smile on my face,
Your warmth is evident in the morning whispers
The promise "I am always with you"
You are present in the breeze that flows down my nose with strength

In my heart you are surrounded by the beauty
And pureness of a love strong
And a heartbeat that longs only for you,
You lie in my every breath, my life

You are the song of my heart
I dream of the day I shall hear you say those dear words my essence longs to hear
"Well done, my good and faithful servant..."

Am I worthy..?